We’ve Moved to the Sunny Side!

Dear Present and Future Subscribers,

We’ve moved to a new blog called “Sunny with a Chance of Armageddon”.

Click to go to Lulu’s new website!

Join me at the new site!

Pendulum will remain open for reference on Sunny.  However, some posts will be password protected, since I am going completely public very soon with my personal identity.  If you are interested in having the password, feel free to email me at:  lulu.em.stark@gmail.com

I want to thank everyone for their loyalty, support, and following over the past year.  It is just time for me to move on in a different direction, and I think Sunny can help me do that.  I do hope that you will come and follow over at Sunny for more stories, narratives, blog projects, and information.  It’s been a pleasure to write for you in the past year.  And I appreciate all of you.  Thank you again.

Remember, it’s http://sunnywithachanceofarmageddon.wordpress.com !


Blog for Mental Health 2012 Official Blogroll Summons

Hey mental health bloggers!

So, I figured out how to put a blogroll together, finally.  I’m about to put the Blog for Mental Health 2012 Official Blogroll together, and I need to know who has pledged so far.  I know there are a number of people.  Some of you may not be aware of Blog for Mental Health 2012, because maybe you’re newer.  Click the link, or peep the badge on Pendulum’s site.

Don’t be fooled by this badge:

That one doesn’t belong to us.  In fact, as you can see by the date, this badge came well after our New Years pledge to blog for mental health for the entire year, instead of just one day.

No, our badge is different and shows a commitment to blog for mental health awareness throughout an entire year, faithfully.


This is the badge that belongs to us.  If you want to participate, I’m officially sponsoring you right now.  Click the image to go to the blog page for Blog for Mental Health 2012’s rules and terms of use.  I’m more than happy to spread mental health awareness by lending my support to other bloggers and inspiring others to come forward.

I am proud of all of the bloggers that have already taken the pledge, and am more than happy to invite others to take it as well.  It’s still 2012; you can still join!

So, if you want on the blogroll, leave me a comment below, something to the effect of, “I have the badge” and “I made the post” or “I want in”.  Whatever, just something to know that you’re in on it.


Day Zero Update

The Day Zero Project

At the beginning of the year, I had mentioned in The Day Zero Project that I had created a Day Zero List.

This is where I ask you, my wonderful readers, for some audience participation  There are certain goals that are contingent upon others to make this happen.  And, I’m ready to get back up on the horse, and make some serious gains on my list.

  • Ask 20 friends to suggest one book, and read them all
  • Ask everyone I know to recommend me one song and make a CD (or CDs) of them, no matter what they are

So, what are some of your favorite books and songs?  Twenty books in one year is some heavy reading, so I need to get started ASAP!

Tag, You’re It!

In this posting game, I have been tagged by Ruby, who writes I Was Just Thinking…, in her post This Time, I’ll Play (Part Two)   Which means I must:

  1. Post the rules that are a part of this game
  2. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and then create eleven new questions to ask the people you’ve tagged
  3. Tag eleven people and link to them on your post
  4. Let them know you’ve tagged them! (but of course)

Okay, onward to give answers that Ruby seeks:

1.)  How long is your spine (stand up very straight, hold a measuring tape as high up as you can feel your cervical – top – vertebrae, then let it drop and measure the distance to where you feel your tailbone).

24 inches even.  What can I say?  I’m a shortie.

2.)  What is one quality that really stands out to your as wonderful in the majority of humanity?

I’m not going to write anything concerning fantastic notions of the human spirit of giving and altruism.  As far as I’m concerned, the greatest majority of the public is as egocentric as one can be without being completely, and obviously self-absorbed and greedy.

No, I’d rather write about truthful topics, such as what I perceive to be the greatest human feat of all.  The human resilience, adaptation and survival.

Humans are interesting creatures, unlike many other that live on this planet.  Humans can adapt to most any climate, and consume almost any food source in order to survive.  I would go as far to say that humans are the most resilient animals on this planet.  We have survived in the wild with animals far bigger and faster than us.  We are innovators, who have advanced problem solving skills.

Today, we have created a mainstream society where our only concern is each other, in terms of being hunted down in the wild.  In fact, we have mostly eliminated the wild, living in our concrete jungles, so to speak.

3.)  What was the name of your very first pet (if you had none, feel free to substitute the name of a good friend, younger sibling, anything you feel is appropriate)?

G.G. was his name.  He was a parakeet with a blue chest, a black and white head, and black and white wings.  I was very young, only four, when he came to live in our household.  And he quickly bonded with me, and became my bird.

G.G. was smart.  He was trained for interaction with people from an early age.  He would eat out of my palm.  He liked his wings petted.  He hardly ever bit anyone, and if he did, he was just playing.  He liked to thumb wrestle.  More like my thumb vs. his beak.

He had preferences about who I spent my time with.  When I started dating, he didn’t like that.  I would take him out of the cage to introduce him to my boyfriends.  And he’d fly around the room, dive bombing their heads!  I should have took the hint.  He was a smart bird.

He passed away when I was sixteen.  That made him twelve years old.  From what I understand, that made him amazingly old for a parakeet.

4.)  What does the phrase ‘Carpe diem’ mean to you, personally?

Carpe diem is Latin, that originally translated to English as, “to pluck, gather, pull off, cull, crop”.  Horace used it in a Latin poem, Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero or “Seize the Day, putting as little trust as possible in the future”.

To me, Carpe diem is a way of saying to seize this moment that you are living in as if it may be your last.  Make this moment your greatest moment.  And put no stock into any moments that may succeed it.  Because they may, or may not be. 

A horizontal sundial with Carpe Diem on it. Fr...

(Photo credit: Wikipedia)

We cannot know the future.  Sometimes, our best action and intentions go terribly wrong.  My father used to tell me, The road to hell is paved with good intentions.”  I’ve come to find his wisdom useful in my life, because despite what I considered to be flawed logic, the man was correct.  Seize this day, this moment.  Make it your own.

5.)  How do you feel about wearing socks?

Terrible.  It’s an awful fate for a foot.  Shoes too.  For me, there is something so unnatural about encasing a foot in leather, cloth, wool, and / or cotton.  It contorts the foot, and doesn’t allow for the foot to feel the ground and earth around it.  How does one expect to know the landscape without feeling it?

I’ve always had this terrible problem with depth perception.  I can’t actually judge distances when I’m walking.  So, like a blind person, I feel my way around.  I kind of see the terrain through my feet.  Anything that encloses my foot dampens that ability.  It’s like putting blinders on.  So, no.  Socks are awful.

6.)  If you could only pick one, would you eat the frosting, the cake, or the ice cream?

Sorry to be a downer, but none of the above.  There is no sense in eating the cake without the frosting.  The frosting alone is too much, and the cake alone is too dry.  As for the ice cream, I’m terribly lactose intolerant.  Feed me ice cream, and a few hours later, I will be in bad shape.  Ice cream is the enemy.

7.)  Have you ever read Catch-22 by Joseph Heller, and if you have, what did you think of it?

I got about 50 pages in.  That’s pretty much my standard for reading books.  If I’m

50 pages in, and I feel as if I’m still grinding through it, then forget it.  I will find no joy in the book.

The problem with Catch-22 is that it begins very vaguely.  There is a seemingly lack of character development right out of the starting gate.  Though I understand the situation, it is difficult for me to identify with any of the characters in the situation.  All in all, it’s not my taste, I suppose.

8.)  What is your very favorite movie ever?

Oh heavens, how can I be expected to pick just one?  I have to cheat.

Lulu’s Top 10 Movies of All Time:

  1. Superbad
  2. Easy A
  3. TheBreakfast Club
  4. A Clockwork Orange
  5. Great Expectations
  6. The Help
  7. Romeo + Juliet
  8. Super Troopers
  9. The Shawshank Redemption
  10. 2012

9.)  How long is your hair (no need to measure on this one, a general-ish idea will do)?

It’s hard to make that call, because I have a lot of funky layers cut in there.  But, the longest piece of my hair measures about 12 inches or so.

10.)  If you could choose one thing to totally change in the behavior of individuals so that we could function better as a world, what would it be?

I know it’s not like this in every country.  Mostly, this stands as a US cultural thing.  I would change everyone’s idea of solid individualism.  STOP!  Before you start with the torches and pitch forks, let me explain.

No man is an island.  Except in the US.  Everyone pretends that they are an island, and are expected to act as such.  There is no such thing as community anymore.  It’s every man for himself.  And, that is such a barbaric thing.  We should be living as a cohesive society and celebrating our differences at the same time.  Individual freedoms, civil liberties, and community.

If everyone lived by the motto “Pay it forward”, we’d all be in better shape.

11.)  What is your favorite quotation?

I’ve said it once, I’ll say it again and again.

“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
Marilyn Monroe
Eleven New Questions:

  1. Scenario.  You are in your house and a fire breaks out.  You have five minutes to grab things, and then you have to get out.  What do you take?
  2. What would you do with a billion dollars?
  3. Do you have an unpopular opinion?  What is it?
  4. What do you think your five most unusual quirks are?
  5. Do you think that you could ever kill a person, given the right circumstances?
  6. What are your thoughts on astrology, extraterrestrials, and the supernatural?
  7. What was the last lie you told?
  8. What does the word “hate” mean to you?
  9. Contrastingly, what does the word “love” mean to you?
  10. What is your definition of cheating?
  11. Are you particular or picky about anything?  If so, what?

So, here comes the best part.  Tagging other people to join in this fun.  Realize that it’s all fun.  There’s no pressure.  If I picked you, then that means I know that you will legitimately enjoy this, and would be the most likely to participate.

My 11 Bloggers Picks: (in no particular order)

  1. A Clown on Fire
  2. Seasons Change, and Change…
  3. Laments and Lullabies
  4. Thee Truth Is
  5. Hello Sailor
  6. Snippets and Glimpses
  7. Through my eyes: Adventures in Borderline Land
  8. Bipolarmuse
  9. Quit the Cure
  10. Kissingthecockroach
  11. Halfway Between the Gutter and the Stars

Blog for Mental Health 2012 – A Hit!

A few days ago, I started a project I call Blog for Mental Health 2012.  I suppose, by now, the greater majority of mental health bloggers are aware of it.  I am amazed by the overwhelming response to it!  In this small amount of time, I have received a great deal of feedback, as well as the spread of it around the blogosphere.  I am nearly in tears by the enormity of it!

Thank you to everyone who is participating.  Through every writer’s participation, we are spreading awareness through our dedication.  We are openly saying that we support mental health awareness and are working our hardest to erase the stigma for every person who carries a diagnosis worldwide.  I am proud to carry a diagnosis today.  And I hope everyone who carries this badge is proud of themselves and / or someone else, too.

In addition, I’ve decided that I wanted to keep an active blogroll open to index bloggers who support Blog for Mental Health 2012.  If you would like to be on the blogroll, leave me a comment and I will be happy to add you to the list!

Currently, our participants are:

Again, if I missed a blog, please leave me a comment.  If you’d like to take the pledge and display your badge proudly, just leave me a comment with a link to your pledge page.

Again, thanks to all who took the pledge and continue to put the word out there!

Blog for Mental Health 2012

Blog for Mental Health 2012 Project
Clearly, I am a mental health blogger. I have been dedicated to sharing my experiences with bipolar disorder for nearly seven months now. That is my primary focus, though I have a tendency to get a little off topic from time to time.  Not only is this therapeutic for me, but I hope that is can be an inspiration for others who suffer with mental health issues.  This is especially the ones who do so in silence.  Every voice is important, as it collects and makes our community’s voice stronger.

This is the premise for Pendulum, as written in the About This Blog page:

Many people suffering from Bipolar Disorder do so in silence. Prior to this blog, I could have included myself. This blog is meant for others to experience living with this disorder the way I, and many others, do. It is also for others to find their voice here and to know that they are not alone in their struggle. Lastly, it is to encourage dialogue and community between bipolar bloggers.

Sometimes it’s interesting. Sometimes it’s sad and at other times it sounds crazy. Grab the pendulum, and hold on for dear life. Otherwise, you just might end up in the pit.

This morning, I found myself interested in an official blogging project to raise awareness for mental health education. I sifted through Google for awhile, unable to find anything like it. And I thought, “Why don’t I start one?” It would be easy! All I would need to do is produce a graphic and some instructions.

The badge above is featured on Pendulum’s homepage, because I am dedicated to continue blogging throughout 2012 for mental health. So, here are the rules.

1.) Take the pledge by copy and pasting the following into a post featuring “Blog for Mental Health 2012”.

I pledge my commitment to the Blog for Mental Health 2012 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.

2.) Link back to the person who pledged you.

3.) Write a short biography of your mental health, and what this means to you.

I have been symptomatic of Bipolar Disorder and Anxiety for most of my life. I was incorrectly diagnosed with MDD in my teens, and suffered in silence. After my son was born in 2008, I went on to experience a severe relapse in symptoms considered to be postpartum psychosis. Several months later, I sought treatment and was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder II.

That was almost three years ago now. Today, I am experiencing the longest stable state I’ve ever had, going on three months now. I am still hesitant to say that I am in remission.

This pledge is my opportunity to commit to mental health awareness. I can publicly display this badge to instantly tell my audience what this is all about. And, I can encourage others within the mental health community that have a Dx to do the same.

4.) Pledge five others.

I am pledging give of my fellow bloggers who have stood with me, and have proven their medal in my eyes as mental health bloggers.

  1. Ruby – I Was Just Thinking…
  2. FracturedAngel – The Mirth of Despair
  3. Monday – Manic Monday
  4. Vivien – Manic Muses
  5. Sarah – bi[polar] Curious

If you happen upon this without being pledged, I still pledge you. Feel free to take the pledge! Promote awareness!