As the Pendulum Swings
Archive for April 2012
Theories on the Development of Disorder
When something, an emotion, an urge, an impulse, is so severely suppressed that a person becomes oppressed, we can often observe extreme opposite reactions. This is consistent with the laws of physics and the universe, “Every action has an equal and opposite reaction.” Except, one thing. I believe when it comes to emotions and behaviors, … Continue reading
Notes, Vicodin, and Wounds
Finally, I couldn’t take it anymore. I excused myself to “put Trent down for a nap”. And I curled up in the bathroom, blanket wrapped tightly around me. A safe cocoon. A straight jacket. The intrusive thoughts came in the silence. At first, they were indistinguishable from the rest of the noise. Then, one came … Continue reading
Lulu-Lunacy
Everything becomes so crystal clear that it becomes transparent. I can see right through people. I can anticipate their reactions to every potential action of mine. And worse, I can set up a nice little verbal trap for them to step into. I caught myself doing this recently. Being viciously manipulative out of paranoia. I … Continue reading
The Woman Who Played With Matches
Tuesday was a big day. The Blackberry – now dubbed BB4, because I’ve determined I’ve doomed any inanimate (and potentially animate) object I name, arrived. And I struggled at every step getting the damn information transferred. A compulsion dragged me into two different pharmacies in town, in search of a replacement Sharpie pen. I obsessed … Continue reading
Protected: The Woman Who Knew Too Little
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Kaput
Remember exactly four months ago when I wrote Bricked, describing how my Blackberry bit the big one, for no apparent reason? This Blackberry Bold 9780 has now frozen. Worse than the Blackberry Curve 3G did. At least that one had some minimal functionality. For instance, the trackpad was the only thing that was frozen. So, … Continue reading
Day Zero Update
At the beginning of the year, I had mentioned in The Day Zero Project that I had created a Day Zero List. This is where I ask you, my wonderful readers, for some audience participation There are certain goals that are contingent upon others to make this happen. And, I’m ready to get back up … Continue reading
Pulling on the Reins
Firstly, I’d like to apologize to my readers. I have not be a good blogger, and I have not been able to keep up with other blogs at the moment. My emotional life has been chaotic, at best. I’ve had a couple of 60′s and 70′s. But, I’ve had many days that were in the … Continue reading
The Mapril Curse
For years, the end of March and the beginning of April have always been rather catastrophic times for me. Since before I can really remember, this has been a terrible time of year. As I grew older, I started to notice certain patterns. Some of the worst things that happened in my life have always … Continue reading
Protected: Doubt and Delusions
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