As the Pendulum Swings
Archive for February 2012
Quiet Desperation
Warning: This post covers sensitive subjects and strong themes that may contain triggers. Reader discretion is advised. This is the cage I built for myself. Feral beasts are dangerous business. Clever, tricky, and adapted to escape at all costs. Be still. It may not see you. Still, silent in the brush. It obscured any vision. … Continue reading
Social Network Hide and Seek
Tallulah “Lulu” Stark has been born into existence on the internet. Hide and Seek – Come find me! New! – Tumblr Facebook Twitter Email: tallulahlulustark@gmail.com And as always, you’ll find the “Like” button for Pendulum’s Facebook page in the sidebar to your right.
A Proper Name
I have never fancied myself a writer. This is much the same as I have never imagined myself a musician, a vocalist, and many other things that I have come to find as truth in my life. In all honesty, I’ve considered myself to be a dabbler, more of a Jack-of-all-Trades – master of none. … Continue reading
The Cypress Tree
On an island called Chios lived the Greek God Apollo, his beloved Cyparissus, and a stag, adored by all of the inhabitants. Especially by Cyparissus. Cyparissus would care for the stag, adorn his horns with garlands, and they’d ride and gallop across the island in merriment. One hot day, Cyparissus was hunting in the woods. … Continue reading
The Trickery of Remission
Warning: Content has potential triggers. Reader discretion is advised. I had come to terms awhile ago that Bipolar Disorder is a lifelong disorder. There is no cure. There is treatment. An abundance of treatment. It was disheartening. It was a huge, ever-looming, oppressive idea. I’m going to go through this for my entire life. Not … Continue reading
A Spectrum of Depression
Blank. Each time I go to write, I get a blank. Is it a blank, because I feel as if I don’t have anything important to say. Or is it a blank, because if I make a certain statement, then it is real. It becomes something tangible in this world, not only for me, but … Continue reading
Warning: Relapse
Honestly, I find the words evaporating before they can come into focus in my mind. I grasp at them, trying desperately to hold to just one. Please, just one to represent this. Let me have only one. So, here I write. My first stream of consciousness entry since the very beginning of this blog. Where … Continue reading
Decent into Hell : 30 Days of Truth
Day 08 : Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. Avi. Staring out the bus window into the grey oblivion, the words slid right down the slate of my mind, and were carried away by the light breeze. It’s not an uncommon occurrence. Many other times I will myself to think … Continue reading
Fighting Back : A Bus Story
This bus. This is the same bus I take to and from work all of the time. Same routes, same drivers, and generally the same people. Not a whole lot changes in my life. Steady job, happily married, a resident of my neighborhood for more than two cumulative decades. It is not monotonous in the … Continue reading
Possibility and Ascension : 30 Days of Truth
Day 07 : Someone who has made your life worth living for. I wrote this for my husband, a year after we got together. This is our story. When one door closes, another opens. And occasionally it occurs as overlapping events, rather than simultaneously. Such is the nature of life, with its interwoven fibers amounting … Continue reading
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