As the Pendulum Swings
Archive for October 2011
Ooops, Mistaken Mistake!
Dear Diary, Today, I got dressed to go to work on Halloween. I didn’t think of a costume until I was standing in front of my dresser. I pulled on my knit kitty hat, buttoned up a white dress shirt, and even tied a blue and grey men’s tie for the first time. I put … Continue reading
Books Speak Louder than Words
Yesterday was not a complete loss. After the episode detailed in I’m Not Okay, C.S. suggested we go to Half Priced Books. We dressed and headed out in an unusual October snowstorm. The ride was enjoyable, although I was too anxious to sit still. It’s always a wet day outside when we go to the … Continue reading
It’s Not Okay
No. No big girl pants. No brave face. No confident words or bright sides. This is Lulu – crumpled in a ball. Maybe the prospective consequence of this surgery I wrote about yesterday in Taking the Bullet didn’t have time to sink. Or maybe there was some kind of mental safety barrier I built around … Continue reading
Taking the Bullet
I went to the dreaded LEEP surgery consultation, as first mentioned in Leep-Into-Cin – Part III, and more recently in A Peach and A Catalyst. Dodging Bullets Honestly, I’ve been dodging this since I received word in May that my Pap came back bad again. I put off the colposcopy until July, as I mentioned … Continue reading
Fear and Loathing in Pittsburgh
Tomorrow at 11:45AM EST, I will be meeting with my OB/Gyn for my surgical consultation that I’ve put off for three months. And I’m more scared of this than I was of my induction of labor. Tomorrow, I face my biggest fears. I face a serious surgery, no matter how benign it may sound. I … Continue reading
Big Money, No Whammy, STOP!
What does it feel like to have 20 Grand hanging in the balance? I ran I Bet Jekll Felt This Way past C.S. a couple of nights ago, in so many words. I rarely read directly from the page. I’ve gotten in hot water by doing that before. Sometimes, there are just some words that … Continue reading
I Bet Jekyll Felt This Way
I’ve mentioned this in recent posts. But now, it’s gotten to a point where I’m not even sure what is going on anymore. In case any readers aren’t up to date, I’ll summarize with some links. This all began with my last cutting episode. We determined that the mixed emotions I was going through was … Continue reading
Occupy and Multiply
By now, we’re all familiar with the protesters that have been camping in Liberty Square in NYC, under the banner Occupy Wall Street. We have a local chapter called Occupy Pittsburgh. This group now calls Mellon Square outside of BNY Mellon home. I wrote a piece in 2008 called Stop Them Before They Spend Again!. … Continue reading
A Peach and A Catalyst
This one was inspired by Colonial Punk’s Post. Stress. A one syllable word that is so commonplace in everyone’s life. When am I not stressed? I can’t answer that. It really is always something. It’s more about how stressors are processed that produces the effects and thus, the consequences. I’m probably not a prime example … Continue reading
The Farris Wheel
Manic Monday recently wrote a post entitled Surgery Date that talked about nasty, unprofessional health care professionals. I spoke to her about their disgrace and the extreme agitation it caused. I have been through the situation many times. I have a certain amount of animosity toward health care professionals as a result. I have been … Continue reading
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