As the Pendulum Swings
Archive for 2011
The Heath Ledger Paradox
Warning: This post has contents that may be hazardous to mental health. It contains strong themes of suicide, suicidal behavior, and substance abuse. Reader discretion is advised. Have you ever had a moment where you heard the distinct and deafening sound of your own clock ticking down? I have only heard this sound a handful … Continue reading
Backdated
I have at least a dozen posts banked. Some of them were meant to go out when I wrote them. Except, I was having serious writers block that I discussed in Perfectionists Anonymous. So, in coming days, I will release a couple backdated posts. These will include, but are not limited to, The Death Trap, … Continue reading
Medicine from The Doctor
As of late, my disappearing act has largely been a result of the longest running series on television and the largest Sci-Fi franchise in the United Kingdom. Some of my fellow Sci-Fi geeks may have already guessed it. If you don’t know, then you may just be living under a rock. I have been obsessed … Continue reading
Imaginary Enemies
Re-pressed from Imaginary Enemies on A Canvas of the Minds. I should have figured that when the monologue became a dialogue that I was in some serious trouble. “The Voice” started to speak up again. “The Voice” may be experienced uniquely for each individual. It may just be a whisper, a buzz, or a feeling. … Continue reading
Oh, Fluck!
With enough wits, a person might be clever enough to deduce the meaning of this Luluism without the aid of a definition. Fluck (fah-lah-uck): a combination term used as an alternative to a swear. It is used to describe an intense negative reaction. Derived from “f***ing luck”. As in: Oh, fluck! I forgot to pick … Continue reading
Fading Stars
It should be my moment. This production was my labor of love. I spent most of my days between October and today invested in this production. There were countless hours where the same melodies played in my head. My right shoulder aches from the increasing weight of my bag. I’ve run flights of stairs to … Continue reading
Fast-Forward to Showtime!
It is a stressful and moderately sleepless period of time for me. It always is before a show. My official job title is Music Director. Any and all things musically related go through me. This includes the winter and spring musicals. In fact, the explicit purpose of hiring me was 1.) To serve as a … Continue reading
Bricked
I decided on Friday that I was going to take a mini vacation from myself over the weekend. And it was fantastic! I took my full doses of medicine and smiled. I grinned ear to ear at all of the things stretched to near transparency and the rest that’s hanging by a thread. I went … Continue reading
High School Never Ends: Unfair Game
Sing it again! Four years you think for sure That’s all you’ve got to endure All the total dicks All the stuck up chicks So superficial, so immature Then when you graduate You take a look around and you say HEY WAIT! This is the same as where I just came from! I thought it … Continue reading
Dream Analysis: The Dangerous Game
In my life, I have always had extremely vivid dreams. In fact, I know that there is something mentally wrong with me when I am not experiencing this. Professionals will tell you that you would die without REM sleep, and I believe that to be true. They say that even if you don’t remember dreaming, … Continue reading
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